Surviving A Horrible Divorce
Years ago I thought I was happy, in love, and my future looked bright.
Though I was young and knew nothing of what is expected in a relationship in order to accept marriage. I thought in the back of my head he may be with me only for the papers, but that quickly went away once he would do something sweet.
After a while many things came to light, the lies, and his cheating. This was only in the second year of our marriage.
Finally, in the second year I told him one day not to come home from work, I would leave the apartment giving him two weeks to move out, that is when the beginning of the end of the relationship.
Our divorce would be easy since there were no assets or children, but the emotions were difficult. All was needed was for him to take his things and leave.
Overall the actual separation would go well materialistically. Emotionally however, it will change me forever.
This was my first relationship that had come to this point of affection, love and seriousness. We were so close and I was throwing him out of my life.
It was a tough decision to make.
That’s when the desperate calls and visitations to my parent’s house started.
I would panic that I had made the wrong decision. He had affected my self esteem to such an extent that I couldn’t imagine anyone ever loving me.
After many arguments and many nights when I battled with myself, the date to go to divorce court was set. Once the papers were signed and done with is when the hardest part started. Everything seemed like a dream. Out with my borther, I would sit and look aimlessly without a blink.
With my family's help to keep my chin up and my brother constantly taking me out of the everyday life I was living I started to see some light.
Finally I met my current boyfriend, about a month after the divorce. It was the scariest experience ever. He was the total opposite of my ex. It was impossible to imagine being with anyone else.
At time it showed, however, as he understood what I had gone through understood and spoke with me about the problems, feeling, and solutions.
With my family’s help keeping me from harming myself and showing me that he wasn’t the only person in the world to love me, and lastly with the understanding and support of my current boyfriend I was able to overcome the divorce, as well as gain trust back in men.
